By Lilian Bonin
This image is taken from my Covid Series. It is an attempt to express my painful experience of losing my mom to a hospital acquired Covid-19 virus, and the inability to share her death and care for her.
I chose a home movie still of the two of us rather than a photograph, as my mom’s life was abruptly halted due to Covid. I felt like I was in an old movie as I was also sick with the virus, and all became a blur: confusing phone calls from the hospital; her blurred image on an iPad; and then …. gone from this world. I placed a cracked plexiglass over the movie still and took a photo of my shadow trying to reach her.
The emotional toll of being denied the physical act of comfort is something that I will struggle with for some time.